Last year I was finally able to name one of the types of privileges I live with. I call it living under the radar (utr) and being safe invisible . I am tall, well over 6 feet and big, over 250 lbs. I am white. I am upper middle-aged. I am cis male. Those characteristics alone make me the picture boy of white male privilege and the patriarchy of America. I first really noticed this 8 years ago walking in Manhattan. I was walking down the sidewalk through one of the infamous sea of humanity scenes we associate with New York. Ahead of me by forty feet was a woman about 5 feet tall wearing a red coat you could not miss. I watched her walk through the crowd. She had to bob, weave, stop, and dash ahead to get around people and avoid collisions. All this while wearing a red coat, you could see three blocks away. I was wearing a dark grey wool coat and brown pants. As I walked, I rarely had to move out of the straight line I walked. The people coming toward me would flow around me
my name is ,n. i’m disappearing by choosing to be forgotten.this is my only place to share and be in the internet public.no, i’m not planning suicide.